3 am

I’m beyond words can possibly begin to describe achingly sad tonight. What I wouldn’t give to complain again about the mundane. 

I miss him so much that it physically literally hurts that I called my emergency doc brother to ask if grief can mimic a heart attack. Yes. It can. I am not having a heart attack. 

I am having a grief attack. 

My GOD this is horrific.

https://youtu.be/C4dci4Z7p6A